"'Our family’s faith is in Jesus Christ and is not dependent on outcomes.' ...We do all that we can for the healing of a loved one, and then we trust in the Lord for the outcome."
- Elder Dallin H. Oaks

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Do you want to hear a secret??

Before I get to the surprise, I have to blog about our Christmas fun and our eighth anniversary... I posted this slideshow to catch up at least a little. We went to Holly Days and the boys had a blast. Benson insisted on wearing his "Polar Express robe" even though it was cold. The next day we went to get our Christmas tree and while Benson napped in the truck, Kimball and McKay broke out the sleds. As an early Christmas gift, Papa and Grammy gave the boys the Polar Express toy train. THEY LOVE IT! It is the perfect gift for my three little Polar Express fanatics.



Today Josh and I are celebrating our EIGHTH anniversary. I don't know how eight years go by so quickly but they do. So much has happened in the last eight years that has made me love him so much more than the day we were married. I can remember thinking that I understood what love was and how much I felt for him. I did love him, so much. I guess that love just grows and matures and deepens with the experiences (both good and bad) that you go through. I know that is what I have to look forward to as the years come and go. So, for our anniversary, we went to Salt Lake over the weekend and stayed for a night while the boys spent the night at Papa and Grammy's. We had a lot of fun and I am so thankful to Josh for always trying to remember our anniversary and to not let it get lost in all the Christmas activities. I recognize how lucky I am to have a Josh. He means so much to me and I sincerely love and appreciate the man that he is for me and for our family. Today he suprised me with flowers...

I love you, Josh!!

And now, if you have made it this far... I guess you really want to know what our surprise is...
So... here you go. We are having a baby! We have kept it mostly quiet for a long time to keep the boys from waiting for SO LONG! It is actually fun because I have two sisters-in-law that are due literally within days of my due date. I am 18 weeks, and this ultrasound is actually a shot of what gender the baby is. The doctor is about 90% sure and I guess we'll look again at my big ultrasound in a week or two, but in the meantime... I am pretty comfortable with his 90% certainty.

SO is anyone super ultrasound savvy and wanna take a guess??

Sunday, December 13, 2009

BLAH!

Do you ever feel like you are busy and you are running around crazy but then you wonder what has happened to all the time? I get frustrated when I feel like I am not getting things done but I know that I have been busy. Christmas is coming up way too fast. I don't feel like I am ready yet, even though I don't really have a lot more to do. I guess I just feel like it is coming up so fast that I haven't had the chance to really feel in the Christmas mood yet. Does that make sense? I am actually feeling quite blah and somewhat depressed. I keep getting mad over stupid little things and then frustrated that I am letting myself get upset. However some things that I am upset about can't be changed or won't be and I still find myself wishing they could be. Sorry to be all Johnny Rain-cloud. I guess it just helps to get a little bit of what I am feeling out there. Even if I have to keep it vague.